Before the year ends..

WOW. This will be my first blog entry for the year 2013 and as I've checked my calendar,it is the last month of the year. yes! It's December. But as we always say, It's better late than never.

I miss writing. I miss having my laptop on for hours and just type my thoughts. it sucks so much to lose a laptop. really. I will save for a new one. not now..but I will have one again. There are a lot of important things first to consider before thinking of my own happiness. Everything has changed. 2013 is indeed a year of change. :)

Before the year ends, I am forcing myself to breath... I want to escape. I want to reflect. I want to travel.

I just want to escape with a backpack with all my light stuff. A bag that can carry all that I need. A bag I can depend on when I am hungry, when I am thirsty, when I want to laugh until tears fell and a bag I can hug tight when I don't have someone beside me for comfort. When I have to be strong for everyone, I am left with no strength for myself. and regaining is not easy. but then again, I know, I am fine, and I will be better and stronger.

Ask my friends, I walk really slow... I don't know.. do i need a valid explanation for this? Walking slowly gives me the time to see the things and the people around me. And when I walk through people and places and things, I always realized how blessed I am to have a home, a family, good friends and a comfortable life. Life is not easy on me, but it is not easier for others. I will always be thankful for the little blessings and the big blessings.

Photos never fail to remind me of pain, heartaches, laughter, excitement and everything in between. Photos make you travel to your world from back then. Photos are the best memory booster.

Your own personal notes are still the best. Writing your journal entry everyday is the most effective way to destress.  You will be amazed of how ugly your handwriting is from the past years and later on... it is still the same :)

I want to make a quick trip before the year ends. 2013 is the year of change. I want to reward myself for standing still.  Good job :)