::I WISH

"i have enough courage to tell you how i feel...."

::PAREPAREHO SILANG....

  

::WHAT IF...

 ::i tell you..
 ::ill be home soon..
 ::i am not the same ritch that u used to know..
 ::i'm gone
 ::ive changed
 ::you knew
 ::i never knew...(oha, song yan..heler)
 ::i never found you..(continuation ng lyrics yan)
 ::i decided to forget you.... and i want to.
 ::ill start today
 ::u feel the same way..
 ::you love me too. cos I DO. (song?)

::I'M A GROWN UP NOW..

::went to church in the morning. sobrang parang mag nenegative ang powers ko.. yung tipong bateryang mauubusan na ng charge, tpos wala kang makitang charger. o kaya nmn bulb na nag kikikindat na dahil mawawalan na ng ilaw. para kong de susi ngayong araw na to. ewan ko ba... o ewan ko na. pero ritch.. ritch.."the battle is the Lord's.."

2 days na atang di nagttext si lynnta skin. di nagrereply. naisip ko.. bka nkalimutan na ko, o nagsawa na sa mga kakasumbong ko. xa tga kunsensya ko eh at tgapagparealize na kaya ko mag survive kahit malayo ako. parasite pa rin ako kahit malayo. pero i am slowly learning. yes, i am.

all of a sudden, nagtext xa. inay, slamat sa pangaral.. pero para tlga kong inuntog sa pader. tama nmn lahat ng sinabi nya skin. eto ilan sa mga sinabi nya na kailangan kong isaisip, isabuhay at isapuso...

MESSAGE 1: "bez, kamusta ka? sunday na, monday na ulit tom, ok knb? di ako paramdam bukod sa hindi unli dhil din para matuto ka ihandle situation jan sa sg.. don't get mad, khit di ako paramdam pigil na pigil lng ako, lagi kita ni iisip kung kamusta na,GUSTO KITA MAGING BRAVE AT MAPARAAN habang anjan. best, tama ka din GUSTO KO MAGTIPID KA, parang nsa pinas ka lang magload eh. bez, yoko mangamote ka jan, para pg my biglaan kang kelngan gawin, bilhin para gmitin, may pera ka pa, MALAU KA SA PAMILYA AT TUNAY N MGA KAIBIGAN kay gusto ko MATUTO KA LUMABAN lalo na't MAG ISA KA!"

-ang daldal no, pero alam mo, sa mga sinabi nyang yan, bawat salita, kailngan kong intindihin. kaya sobrang importante mga sinasbi ng kumag na yan sakin, kase bukod sa pinsan kong si minola, xa lang ang may lakas ng loob sabihin sakin yang mga ganyang bagay. hindi para saktan ako o anuman, kundi para hilahin ako pataas, matutong lumaban at maging matatag. si kumag, kahit abnoy, may katuturan mga sinasabi. kaya lagi nya kong sinesermonan na lumaban, magsalita at sumagot kapag kinakailangan. nasanay kase ako na lagi n lang paxenxa ang hinahabaan, at tumahimik na lang kahit alamk ong kailangan ko ng magsalita. pero natuto ako sa kanya. hindi pala sa lahat ng oras applicable ang pagiging mabait. mabuting tao oo, pero sa oras na kailangan mo ng idepensa ang sarili mo, hindi na para tumahimik ka pa at habaan ang pasensya mo. kung may moment ang iba para magsalita... may sarili din akong boses, may sarili din akong moment para magsabi ng kung anumang kailangan mong marinig. masakit man o hindi.. pero sinisigurado kong totoo at walang pagkukunwari. hindi madali para sa akin dahil buong buhay ko, nsanay akong maging mhaba n lang ang pasensya at wag magsalita. pero nagbabago naman ang tao. lalo na kung sa ikabubuti.

sbi ko nga sa isang status ko sa fb.."i want to be just like my bestfriend, brave and strong.." kung brave man ako ngaun, hindi sasabihin ni lynn na gusto nya kong maging brave at maparaan. dahil alam ko, at alam nya na kung brave man ako...kulang pa rin, hindi sapat para sa kung anumang pinagdadaanan ko ngayon. kaya eto, pinagsusumikapan kong maging mas matapang, maparaan, at maging mas matibay. para na rin sakin at sa pamilya ko. unti unti ko na ring ntututunang maging matipid kahit mahirap. kailangan eh. hindi inaani ang pera ng ganun lang. at natutunan ko na kahit paunti unti.. oo nga, malayo ako, kaya kelangan kong matutong lumaban dahil mag isa lang ako. walang baback up, walang sasalo. kami lang ni EDI ang magkakampi. umiyak ka man, walang aamo, walang magpapatahan sayo. at walang aako ng mga kailangan mong gawin. kailangan mong matutunang mag isa ritch.

lagi ko na lang sinasabi sa sarili ko na wala ako dito kung hindi ko kakayanin. God wont put me in situations I can't handle. kaya.. andito pa din ako, hindi ko itataas ang white flag. walang sukuan to. hanggang makita ko at malaman kung anong dahilan bakit ako nandito. hindi lang yung sarili kong dahilan pero kung anumang gusto ni Lord na gawin ko.

 MESSAGE 2: "miss kya kita, ramdam ko wala ka sa bday ko, ramdam ko bez at nalulungkot ako, bukod sa naulan yon, wala ka pa. sna magkatrabaho kana. love ka ni GOD, bi2gyan ka nya ng best job jan, best tipid2 ka jan ha? hindi mo mssbi panahon.. mag ingat, magtipid, alert, brave at magdasal palagi, kakausapin mo lagi si God! loveyah best, smile ka lang kahit badtrip ka, kahit may dinadamdam ka, lampas lht ng negative na naririnig sa kabilang tenga! wag ka paapekto ha.. mwuah! have a gud nyt!"

-dahil di nman ako nakreply dito sa message na to bez, dito ko na lng lulubusin

1.sabi mo nga laging naulan pag birthday mo, kahit itanong ko pa kay nanay. yaan mo, magrrequest ako sa mga tao ng mag drawing ng sun sa lupa para di umulan sa birthday mo.. dadamihan ko request para maging mataas sikat ng araw bez! maiba naman.

2. ilang beses mo nabanggit ang word na MAGTIPID.. oo na, oo na po.. magtitipid na po talaga. nag eecho na sa tenga ko eh.

3. alert na nga... at yes, lagi ko kausap si God kaya dont wori. tama ka jan besty, bibigay nya ang best job para sakin :) 

4.at hindi ako malulungkot.. minsan na lang. kse malungkot tlga bez pag malayo eh. minsan natutulala na nga lang ako. kaya nga dapat alert alert. heheh. actualy, pinakamganda mo nga plang tanong eh kung may anda pa ko dito, wla lang, tanong lang kse wla ka namang mpapadala eh.. hahah. batukan kita kumag chanak!

realizations... realizations... mga dapat kong isaisip, isapuso at isabuhay.... ur a grown up ritch... ur not a baby anymore. KINAKAYA MO NANG MAG ISA. :) APIR :)

:: yes, it is.. :)

 

 ::LOVE knows no rule, knows no boundaries, knows no limit. when you love, you oddly don't know the reason why. LOVE IS only LOVE when it is UNCONDITIONAL. :)

::I WONDER...

::if tigger has already arrived in the philippines..

 ::if they were soo happy at home.. celebrating tamey and ehca's graduation.. happy i know, it cudve been happier if I'm there ;)

::why I'm still sick... (how come i am wonderin?)

::why the sky in esplanade today is sooo beautiful...

::why I'm thinking of you..

::if i'll ever see you again (oy, kanta yan)

::how i wonder why... (kanta once more)

::if doggie and milky miss me..

::why I can't sleep

::why my nose was sooooo itchy last last night!! ngayon ko lang naalala, onga pla. to the point na nilagyan ko na ng alcogel, makati pa din!!

::if you're thinking of me too..

::if you feel the same way too, just imagine me whispering to you... lols. (song again)

::WHY I AM SO MADALDAL at puro kwentos.. lols. nitey :)

::DREAM BIG or DREAM WEIRD?

"vanilla sky.."  yun ang tinandaan ko at hindi ko makalimutang term ng panaginip ko. movie yan eh.yun ba tawag dun? eh hello, parang meteor shower naman yun eh. pero whatever that is, kung anuman yun, mas mahalaga pa rin kng sino ang nasa panaginip ko.. meteor shower man yan o putik shower :)

::MY NEW PET--TIGGER! ;)

::walking in newton street.. i found this sad little tigger.. nakapatong sa my phone post. sad. abandoned xa ng amo nya. kaya sabi ni ate joy kunin ko na.. nahiya pako nung una, pero napilit din ako, hahah,kaya binalikan ko si tigger. kawawa naman xa. tpos nipaliguanko xa.. kso di matuyo tuyo. hahah. he needs extra love and affection. cguro me trauma pa to. o siguro baliw ako. heheh;)        

::PARK YOUR WORRIES RITCHEE..

::this is such a late entry but i don't want to forget the moment soo i will still blog it... ok ritch, blog it!! :)
after the toxic company hopping the whooooole day, decided not to go upstairs and just stayed here in the park.. where u can see meetoo and an ice cold orange drink. (intently bought that drink kase idol ko si bianca. kailangan ko yang matikman, at parang royal lang na iba ang tatak, haler.heheh)
it was a mixed moment... my voice was trembling wen i talked to lola over the fone. i miss her. i miss everyone in the house. i talked to coleen and greet her happy bday. ayaw man lang magsalita, hahah. pero ok lang.
after that, decided to call besty, and the mood switched!! hyper kung hyper ako,daldal mode n nman ako. haba ng kwentuhan super!! sobrang saya, parang landline lang. hahah. nkakawala ng stress. thank you bes, spongebob ka tlga.. bungi. heheh, i mean, sponge... absorber.
after that, nagstay pa rin ako sa park, inantay si jane. nag laro ako sa playground na parang bata. hahah. nakakahiya. at after ng gabing to, jan na nagsimula ang katoxikan, nagkasakit nako, siguro kakaiba ang hamog dito... hagard!!! di na ulit ako tumabay sa park after. heheh.  sana gumaling nako Lord. nitey ;)

::LET'S PLAY I SURVIVED

::special occasions/dates I'll miss..

•  Coleen's 1st birthday (march 23)
• holy week
•  milky's 3rd birthday (april 15)
• TM's graduation
•  tamey's graduation
•  ehca's graduation
• laiya with family
• doggie's 5th birthday (may 12)
• bora with besty
• laiya with family
• besty's birthday (may 28)

::HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY COLEEN!!

Dearest coleen,

 ur already 1 year old! ang bilis :) it's sad that i wasn't there to celebrate with you. kahit di ka nagsalita kanina nung tumawag ako, okey lang, narinig mo ba boses ko? :,) everyone loves you baby, and i love you dearly, i hope someday u will get to visit me here, pag naaapreciate mo na ang mga rides, pupunta tyong universal studios :) na enjoy mo ba party mo? sbi ni tita minoi, nakakalakad ka na daw, kso wala ka pa ring ipin. hihih. miss ko na ikaw coleen, miss na miss ko na ikaw!! happy birthday baby!

all my love is yours,
nangnang ritchee

::NAMES

sweet
ara
eden
car
anne
may
jerico
kaye
tropang trip
krenz
bunso
tanya
badz
hannah
nikki
russelle
panda
rizza
mesi
coleen
tubay
hazel
aby
vanj
lei
shara
nerlie
joseph
sam
bambie
shinshin
sars
nikki
kuya ian
kuya sonny
cylah
krengy
minoi
ecang
palok
ise
tamey
bay
wella
olivia
cha
trixie
gale
batch 164
jane
lalen
anne
nunuy
arman
empoy
patcho
anonymous
ate bullet
shau
scottlander
nethz
oasis
shen
ley
joan
tm
bez

effective pala, inaantok nako :) good mornite! :)

::SAVED! :)

today is such a wonderful day :)

"the battle is not yours, for the battle is the Lord's "

nitey! :)

::tissue tissue...

seriously wanna go home... :(

 naiyak.. homesick na :(

::CHOOSE

got this from a friend, just want to share it with you. nice song :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmpdjBQ4CIE

::LAUGHTRIP!!

::at dahil gustong tumawa ng tumawa ni jane. pagkatapos nyang manuod ng sangkatutak na video ni vice ganda sa you tube, eto naman ang napagtripan nya!! gulong kung gulong, gumulong tayong lahat! hahah. :)

Registered nurse si Bebeng sa L.A. Kasama niya ang kanyang ina na nagpagamot doon. Namatay ang ina nito. Dahil sa kamahalan ng pamasahe pabalik sa Pilipinas, nagtipid si Bebeng. Pinauwi na lang niya ang kabaong ng kanyang ina na mag-isa.



For the sake of laughter! Enjoy reading..

Pagdating ng kabaong, napansin ng mga kapamilya niya na nakadikit ang mukha ng ina sa salamin ng ataul. Nagkomento tuloy ang isang anak, "Ay, naku! Tingnan mo 'yan... hindi sila marunong mag-ayos ng bangkay sa Amerika! Nakudrado tuloy ang mukha ng inay." Upang ayusin ang itsura ng bangkay, binuksan ang kabaong. Aba! May sulat na-nakastaple sa dibdib ng ina. Kinuha nila ito at binasa. Ang nilalaman ng liham na mula kay Bebeng:



Mahal kong tatay at mga kapatid:

Pasensya na kayo at hindi ko nasamahan ang nanay sa pag-uwi riyan sa Pilipinas dahil napakamahal ng pamasahe. "Ang gastos ko pa lang sa kanya ay mahigit $10,000 na. Ayoko nang isipin pa ang eksaktong halaga. Anyway, ipinadala ko kasama ni nanay ang mga sumusunod...

Nasa likod ni nanay ang dalawampu't apat na karnenorte at isang dosenang spam. Ang adidas na suot ni nanay ay para kay tatay. Ang limang pares ng de-goma ay nasa loob ng dalawang asul na Jansport na backpack na inuunan ni

nanay. Tig-iisa kayo.



Ang iba't-ibang klase ng tsokolate at candy ay nasa puwetan ni nanay. Para sa mga bata ito. Bahala na kayong magparte-parte. Sana'y hindi natunaw. Ang pokemon stuffed toy na yapos-yapos ni nanay ay para sa bunso ni ate. Gift Ko sa first birthday ng bata. Ang itim na Esprit bag ay para kay Nene.



Ate, nasa loob ng bag ang pictures ni inay, japanese version ng pokemon trading cards at stickers. "Suot ni nanay ang tatlong Ralph Lauren, apat na Gap at dalawang Old Navy t-shirts. Ang isa ay para kay Kuya at tig-iisa ang mga pamangkin ko. Maisusuot ninyo ang mga iyan sa fiesta.



Suot din ni inay ang anim na panty hose at tatlong warmer para sa mga dalaga kong pamangkin. Isuot nyo sa party.May isang dosenang NBA caps sa may paanan ni nanay. Para sa inyo, itay, kuya, dikong, Tiyo Romy. Bigyan nyo na rin ng tig-isa 'yung mga pamangkin ko at 'yong isa ay kay Pareng Tulume.



Ang tigdadalawang pares ng Nike wristband at knee caps na suot-suot din ni nanay ay para sa mga anak mo, diko, na nagbabasketball. Tigdadalawang ream Ng Marlboro lights at Winston red ang nasa pagitan ng mga hita ni nanay.

Apat na jar ng Skippy Peanut Butter, dalawang dishwashing liquid, isang Kiwi glass cleaner at tig-aanim na Colgate at Aqua Fresh ang nakasiksik sa kilikili ni nanay. Hati-hati na kayo, huwag mag-aagawan.



Isang dosenang Wonder bra (Victoria's Secret ata ang tatak)gustong-gusto ni Tiya Iskang society natin, suot-suot din ni nanay. Alam kong inaasam-asam nyo 'yan, tiya. Anim na lipstick lang ang kasya sa bra. Ang Rolex na bilin-bilin mo tatay, suot-suot ni nanay. Nakatakip sa Nike na wristband. Kunin mo agad, Itay.

May isinisik akong zip-loc sa bunganga ni Inay na naglalaman ng $759 dollars. Hindi na ako nakatakbo sa ATM. Puede na siguro sa libing iyon.



Iyong tong na makokolekta, i-time deposit niyo Kuya para pag namatay si Tatay may pambili na ng ataul.Ang hikaw, singsing at kuwintas (na may nakakabit pang anim na nail cutters) nagustong-gusto mo, ditse, ay suot suot din ni nanay. Kunin mo na rin agad, ditse. Ibigay mo ang isang nailcutter kay Jay bakla sa kanto.



Tanggalin niyo ang bulak sa ilong ng inay, may isiniksik ako 3 diyamante sa bawat butas. Ibangon niyo lang si inay at tiyak na malalaglag na ang mga iyon. Konting alog lang siguro ng ulo.

Marami pa sana akong ipaglalalagay kaya lang, baka mag-excess at si nanay pa ang maiwan. Basta parte-parte kayo, tatay, kuya, ate, dikong, ditse. Para sa inyo lahat ito. Bahala na kayo kay nanay. Pamimisahan ko na lang siya rito.Balitaan ninyo na lang ako pagkatapos ng libing. Alam ni ate ang email ko. Paki-double check ang lista kung walang nawala sa mga ipinadala ko.



Nagmamahal,
BEBENG

::PATIENTLY WAITING..

Jeremiah 29:11-13 "for i know the plans i have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you,plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you."

::IF I AM IN THE PHILIPPINES RIGHT NOW..

It's friday night, gimik mode!! and if im there, im definitely in LB square right now, or kung nasa head office naman ako, gimik galore din with the tropas. ahh!! tropa! tropa!! nakakamiss. I didn't know it wud be this hard being away from home.
 it isn't easy. para kong nawalan ng back bone nung npalayo kay lynnta. xa kasama ko almost everyday. kahit weekends. namimiss ko ng may kausap, at dumaldal 24/7(un lang nakikinig sakin khit tulog) at gumimik, it's odd kse kahit dalawa lang kmi most of the time, sobrang enjoy pa din..no dull and quiet moments, walang dead air, alam mo kung ano lang ang meron? pananakit ng katawan. heheh. I seriously wanna go home. pero bakit parang ang tagal ng oras? ang bagal ng araw?

those were taken at lb square, sa cr ni uncle john, ginulangan na nmn namin sa pagbabayad. ilan lang yan sa sangkatutak na pics namin ni kumag pag na gimik. kailangan laging may kodak moment eh. para updated.

 I MISS..

siomai sa mamus

foot spa at body massage sa vlounge!

pati na nga din pedicure kahit masakit

sila ateng mahadera

mga LSS!! wala ng LSS...

ic's

kropek
sisig

mocha creme at quarter pounder

si uncle john

walkathon

si jose rizal (ahahah!)

ang pila

ang nkakastiffneck kong unan

my bestiful..

 my friend told me a while ago to go home na, para abot ako sa gala on april.. i am seriously considering it! parang ayako tanggihan yun, camsur! waaah... punta tayo bez punta tayo!! andun na yung destiny ko!!hahah joke :) ahaaay. let's just all sleep... pag gising ko bukas, andito pa din ako sa singapore, at gagala na lang kami ni meetoo. nitey! :,)

HOW TO DO THE LAUNDRY (the magical way) :)

PART 1 of today:

It's errand day and i planned to do it all today! :) thought it was just a great morning to start to do the chores and then head off to sentosa in the afternoon to somehow see the universal studios opening!! (yeah, today un, as in!) but the great morning that i expected became even greater when i started to do the laundry. would you believe, I now know how to wash my clothes? :) well, kung close friend kita, hindi ka maniniwala. at dahil kilala mo ko, alam mong may kapalpakang nangyari. LOOK AT THIS! :)

SHIRT 1:

It's actually not my shirt. borrowed this to ate marj nung time na naiwan ako ng last trip ng bus going home and had no choice but to sleep at her flat. cute no? yellow :) magic!!! ok ok, aamin na ko, alam mo ba kung anong original na kulay nito?? PINK YAN! PINK!!!! waaaah. pero dahil nkalimutan kong ihiwalay ang puti sa may kulay, naging kulay yellow ang pink na damit ni ate marj. at hindi ko pa alam kung pano sasabihin sa kanya. ahahahah! laughtrip talaga. pero nkakatuwa kase even yung kulay nya. naging yellow talaga. butones na lang yung pink ngayon :)

SHIRT 2:

one of my favorite pangtulogs.. iba na kulay nya ngayon! di na sya white! :) hindi gaanong halata sa picture pero kung nkapag sleep over ka na sa bahay at  nakita mo na to na suot ko, tapos bigla mo ulit makita ngayon, laughtrip ka rin siguro :) hahahah.



lesson learned: separate the  de kulay sa kaputian. tatandaan ko na kesa mag change colors lahat ng damit ko!

PART 2 of today: 

 wasn't able to go to universal, kawawa siguro yung mga nagpunta kase umulan the whole afternoon. sad. pero yummy ang hapon ko! :) ate janet prepared something to eat, aba di ko tatanggihan yan!! crepe galore for this afternoon!

(eto na yung pic! ahahah!)

at dahil failed ng failed ang uploader, bukas ko na lng upload yung pic. kung sa bagay sabi ng friend ko muka nmn daw xang turon. heheh. at mtutulog na lng muna ako kase umaga na naman! kagaya ng uploader, failed na naman din ako sa pagtulog ng 11:00 pm atmost. anong petsa na, 3:25 am of march 19. ritch, iba ka talaga :) sweetest dreams everyone!! :)

::HAVE YOU SEEN HER?

i miss her laughs

how she talks and tell stories over and over

how she smiles to everyone she sees

i miss her patience

i miss the way she handles her life's struggle

the way she walks

her being child like

her pagiging malambing and caring

her being naturally makulit

her pagiging madaldal

i miss seeing her genuinely happy...

i hope in time, when everything falls into place, she will come back to being HER.

i miss you ritch.. i miss you sooo much.  goodnight.

::things I want to do TOMORROW..

:: woke up at around 8 am, pray, check if coleen is awake, hug and kiss her. go outside to get milo 3 in1 and palmolive shampoo. high five milky. then straight to the kitchen to hug doggie. listen to my favorite playlist on my fone while drinking milo hnggng marealize kong 9 n pla.

::magmoment on my way to the branch. then greet the metronbankers goodmorning! chitchat with the guards, telababad with joan, arlene, jane and lynn.

::after lunch,go to market branch to visit jane and spoil myself to free wifi connection.

::then head off to lb branch to pick up lynn.footspa and pedicure @ vlounge (miss ko na ang mga mahaderang ate) then after that, eat shomai shomai shomai at mamus...mkipagpulaan ng sangkatutak kay lynn habng kumakain ng dinner. matagal kse bgo makaalis ng mamus for sure makaka siyam xa or more.

::automatic na magmomoni sa square. 1 or 2 bottles. (typo) 3 to 5 bottles.

::mag iimbento ng mga okasyon sa buhay ko para makalibre ng wiwi sa cr ni uncle john..

::magdaldalan, magtawanan, magbatukan at magsaya hnggng umaga at antayin ang magic words... "samin ka na sleep!"

::walkathon from square to jollibee.. ara mahulasan at makita si jose rizal..

::umuwi at magbihis,maglinis at maghugas ng paa kahit nkakatamad!

::intayin hnggang matapos ang OC na magcheck ng magchek ng magchek kung lock na ba pinto, sarado na ref, bunot na saksakan at patay na mga ilaw.

::pumasok sa kwarto hindi para tumulog kundi ipagpatuloy ang dakdakan at tawanan hnggng mapraning si nanay... at hnggng mkatulog..


-then the next day, ganun n nmn ulit at pag uwi smin, coffee talk at tambay with my minola. ikwento lahat ng ngyayari sa buhay at mga nkakaloka at katawang moments. pati ang mga kabuangan nya sa buhay nya... hnggang maubos ang kape. at magtimpla ulit....


random thoughts... that if I'm home right now, these are the things im gonna do tomorrow. but im far.I just can't. i now know what its like to be here,helpless. when i woke up tomorrow, i still wont get the chance to see coleen smiling, i can't even hear my bestfriend's laugh, and can't sip the same coffee i share with my cousin. this is such a hard road to take, but i know it will be worth all the sacrifices. my heart is there.. it didn't leave.

::original posting march 15, 2010

::my first sunday in SINGAPORE! :)

Just a thought. Before I arrive here in sg, one of the things that I want to experience is seeing the sunrise. Oddly speaking, sunrise here is very early and the sun comes rushing down at 7 to 730 pm. Believe me! And today, I still failed to see the sunrise.

It wasn’t a good start of the day to realize that I am sick. I know, it’s because I don’t get enough sleep almost everyday. But for today I manage to sleep for almost a day! I had too. My mind doesn’t want cause it’s a waste of time to sleep for too long, but my body needs to rest.

I woke up at around 2pm, checked my fone, watch American idol (ganda pa din ni idol kara!) and sleep for the rest of my life.. hahah,joke. Woke up again at around 6pm, I felt better. Ate janet wants us to come with her in bugis. I need to, free dinner kaya yon. Hihih.(this is the Arab Street obviously, heheh. where u can find a lot of cloth stores)

Saw something new again like the mosque of muslims in arab street. Ate @ zamzam, a muslim resto. I anticipated that ill give low rating at the food here.. again and again. But since, im gonna eat dinner for free, lets give the arab’s foods a little chance, malay natin, masarap pala. Hahah.(the restaurant, prata everywhere!)

Ate janet wants us to try the egg prata. Sounds interesting. She also bought me my favorite naicha!! Wiih. When the food is served, it was just like a big pancake. I was absolutely correct. Even the taste!! The only difference Is that they put some eggs on the center. But what’s weird is that we have to dip it in a curry gravy. Wapak. Curry n naman. Ayoko na. hahah. Good thing ate janet asked for sugar, alternative sa curry gravy. Thank you Lord! The prata is big! It made my stomach felt like super bloated. Kailangan pang simot sarap. Bawal magtira. Soo that’s my dinner for tonight. Pede na din.(the prata maker: kuya prata)

(this is it pansit!!)

(meetoo, did u enjoy eating the prata? hahah. parang hotcake lang no?)

After that, we went strolling at bugis. Andami kong nakitang hello panda. Happiness!!! Ang gaganda ng mga wrist watch and super affordable. I also saw super duper gandang mga nail polish!!I bought a super nice bag for only $18. It costs $36 tlaga, sale lang. I super love it! Useful kse pdeng shoulder bag at sling bag, and wud u believe reversible xa!! Wag kang maniwala kse nagjjoke lang ako. Heheh. Sooo cute talaga. And because of that, ilang araw nman akong di pdeng kumain sa labas. Hahah.(wiih!!!love it!)

(wasn't able to take a picture of myself today kase im sick at hindi ako naL*go, hahahah kaya sa mirror n lng)

(lab lab lab!!!)

I enjoyed the night, I love it here.

Went back home and my laptop is still tinotopak. Got the chance to see erik and johann online. I remember IT silang dalawa. Kapalan n talaga ng muka, nagpaulong na talaga ko. Hahah. And fortunately, erik knew how to fix it! Talamat! Hulog ka ng nanay mo… este ni Lord! :) kaya eto, pde na magpasasa sa net using my own laptop. Yehey!!

Good morning Singapore, I’m inlove with you!! :)

::original posting: march 07 2010/sunday

::A FREE RIDE..

One unexpected day, I woke up with an intense feeling of willingness to do a goal. It’s I think one of a typical scenario for a lot of people wherein you found yourself on one moment, thinking that where you are right now is not the place you are destined to be.

Actually, it was not a one-moment-moment. it came as many time as it wants. If this is a person and not a moment, He is like an angel whispering to me that I should get out of this place.. A more meaningful place is waiting for me. And as many times He knocks on my head, as many times I ignore him and give the chance for myself to eventually know if I should listen to his provoking voice or not.

Until one morning, I found myself being decided of the matter. The better place is readily available for me—and this is the place I am dreaming to go to ever since. Lord God is answering the prayers. THIS IS IT. I can’t be wrong.

So I did the first move. Consult my friends about the situation and surprisingly, they all have agreed with me. Meaning, everything is taking its course and I should better do the move—to resign. And so I did, and everything happened so smoothly. I thank the Lord for that.

The next move is waiting for me and so I should start, to finally be on that better place. Complete all the necessary requirements and then attend the training. But after believing that this opportunity is all mine, a hard battle came in. I had to choose between my family and my dream work. Of course, with no questions asked, I turned it down. If it’s for me, the opportunity will still present itself.

I became an instant mother for about 3 months. I had the joy of experiencing what it’s like to have a baby, even if this little angel doesn’t come from me. It wasn’t easy to stay all night and watch over her. But it’s fulfilling. I love her with all my heart. And I won’t ever forget that I once became a mom because of her.

The storm has passed and I have to get back to the life that I abandoned for a while-my life. I again started to look for jobs. Now, I’m pretty decided about the fact that, I will look for jobs that I am willing to do and I know I will excel. Impulsive decision is a no no anymore. This is it.

There came a point that I almost lost enough strength to wait. But the Lord sustained me. HE didn’t allow me to stumble, to lose hope or to give up. I patiently wait. And another surprise came. My dream work is again offered to me. This is really it.

i went to the process, met my batchmates, it was sooo fun that I don’t feel it’s work. I’m shocked on the screening and met the vocal coach that made me feel sooooo nervous!! It was a worthwhile experience. Then a call from another company just made my head swirl. Another opportunity is opening its door for me. I decided to go to the interview to see what will happen. Then in just a snap, a decision is made. I want this job. I will forget my dream to be a vocal coach and accept the challenge of being a financial executive. I prayed for it, I consulted ate bullet and my dgroup for this. And I know this job will be of big help for my family. It’s funny how the turn of events is running. It was like, I’m here today, and tomorrow I’m already miles away from where I came from.

Being in AXA was such a roller coaster ride. I was emotionally driven because I met a lot of nice people and learned a lot from them—my batchmates, Ms. Gale, my area mates, metrobankers and many more. I even got the chance to meet and be close to some valued clients of metrobank. I love this job. I lovebeing with people.

Until one day, the roller coaster decided to rush down. There came a point that I realized what’s really behind this ride. It’s not about the job and what comforts in life that it can give me and my family, it’s not also about my career growth but I found out that the Lord puts me in this place to meet new people that will help me to grow as a person. He also gave me the chance to share what I have with this people. And I feel blessed to add them in my life’s treasured memories.

And now that I started a new phase of life again, new ride that brought me in another country, I don’t exactly know the purpose of being here… but I know that it will be worth all the sacrifices. New life, new place, new people, new ritch with the same old heart.