This blog is a product of me having to do nothing on this day but to just wake up in the morning, check my email, my facebook, killing time on twitter and back-reading some of my favorite blogs and then checking my email again and hoping that today, the good news will come, the magic words will pop out like coco krunch-- "hi ritchee, your workpass has already been released." and I can do what I rehearsed for months now, JUMP FOR JOY! this is a typical day for me. a day of nothingness, wasted time and too much thinking. i'm burning a lot of braincells thinking what i should do with this life. i'm trapped.
since this past few days ive been to texting again because of some bum friends as well and my ever concerned friends who think that i am actually lost in this world, oh well they are my very few beloved friends whom i won't get tired of saying thank you and i love you over and over again! they are the best because they don't get tired of me while i am very tired of myself. i really am!
my good friend karen text me to the nth level almost every minute of the day to kill time, to make me a messenger to her boyfriend since she doesnt have connection to the cyber world right now(TARLAC GIRL-nag papala sya ng lahar at this moment while texting, hahah). she is really a no fail comedy girl, who text me a lot of what she's doing - nagpaint na xa, nag luto ng bake mak, nag tanim ng halaman sa garden, nagkuto ng mga daga, naglinis ng cr at kulang n lng ay magwalis ng bubong sa pagka bored. hahahha. major laughrip. we talk non sense, but when we talk about my life as a bum, mind you, as a patiently waiting bum, she keeps on saying to me "TAMBAY! kumilos ka na! mag apply ka na sa iba! sinasayang mo oras mo!" blah blah blah blah! we call ourselves ungas since college. we are indeed ungas.
Ungas: a term used to describe a person who is like a sira ulo, engot at times and aanga anga.
Even if i don't want to read her message about being a tambay, i still have to. I am torn. It's like there's a world war I II and III in my head. MAGULO. she's right, i am wasting too much time. It's like i'm waiting for forever. and that's very depressing. I want a result. i just want a yes or a no for me to go on with my life. I need to get out of this waiting world. I need to go on. i need an answer, or maybe a miracle.
bambie, my instructor in college turned super friend suggested that i could waste my time teaching english online. k, i'll try that bam. i will also start online writing job. I don't want to waste my time anymore. 3 months--that's too much bumness! i want to be productive while waiting. sigh.. waiting is my favorite word this past few months. Lord, do a miracle for me. super please.
shout out to my few friends who remained. for those who helped me walk on this rocky life, super thank you to such a few people who didn't get tired of helping me with this emotional ride. AJ is one of those, i super thank you and i love you beyond words!! to aj's look alike and my SG sister Lhot who never gets tired of checking on me and for helping me throughout this journey. i greatly appreciate baluts.THANKS TO EVERYONE you know who you are, i you don't know-well that would be a problem. :)
i will forever believe that God is in control and no matter what his will would be, I will gladly embrace it. fight! :)
Postscript:
while being a bum, i'm getting addicted to this. I'm sure karen would agree.. and my cousins too! you might wanna try. it's a heaven sent coffee!! caffeine overload na ako :)
and also while typing this, our maid keeps on calling my dog named "doggie" as "JOGY"!! hahhahah! she said: "ha? doggie ba? hindi ba jogy??" super HAHAHAH :)
